Friday, December 13, 2013

This Day In Gay Utah History December 13th

December 13
1898 Peter Steen who was convicted of sodomy was sentenced to five years in the penitentiary in  Pocatella, Idaho Salt Lake Herald

1932 The Utah Supreme Court reverses the sodomy conviction of a man that was based on the uncorroborated testimony of a consenting partner and the admission of evidence of earlier acts with another partner. The reported sodomy case was State v. Gregorious, decided in 1932. In this case, a male about 15 years of age willingly submitted to an act of sodomy with the defendant. The witness stated in the trial that Gregorious started "kissing me and loving me and then he slid down my pants" and then pushed him onto a bed. He made no effort to resist, saying that he "did not see any reason why I should resist from it." The state contended that, because of his youth, the witness’s testimony required no corroboration. By a vote of 3-2, the Court reversed the conviction, saying that corroboration was needed and noting other errors in the trial.

Jim Jones
1973 In MacArthur Park, Los Angeles Jim Jones founder of the People’s Temple and mass murderer was arrested and charged with soliciting a man for sex in a movie theater bathroom known for homosexual activity. The man, as it turns out, was an undercover Los Angeles Police Department vice officer. Jones is on record as later telling his followers that he was "the only true heterosexual", but at least one account exists of his sexually abusing a male member of his congregation in front of the followers, ostensibly to prove the man's own homosexual tendencies. “Sex in Peoples Temple” by David Wise
  • Not long after the formation of the L.A. church, Jim ran into a serious legal problem. He was arrested in the restroom of a late night movie theater where a lot of gay men hung out. Apparently, he approached an undercover agent with an erect penis in a provocative way. This incident threatened to bring down Peoples Temple, and those who knew about it teamed up to prepare for the possible backlash. While the lawyers worked to get the arrest sealed, Jim became more and more threatened and paranoid, convinced that he would still be exposed. To reduce the fallout, we were told to invite people from a local “homosexual church”, but members of the church did not return after their first visit. Jim still needed some homosexuals. He was determined to make Peoples Temple a more openly homosexual church to stop insiders and outsiders from turning against him in case his own homosexual arrest became public. After the arrest, Jim told Karen Layton, “No more sex with strangers.” He was forced to find outlets for his sexuality within the church to avoid being destroyed from without. He used the preposterous notion that he had to “relate” to other men’s homosexuality, to reach them on their level, or he would propose to introduce men to their inner homosexuality. Although Jim was the one who was actually guilty, the arrest led him to spread a new ideology: that all men were latently homosexual except for him. With revolutionary, dedicated, uncompromising enthusiasm, members of the Temple’s inner staff had helped create healings for the cause. (Not all healings were fake, though. When the whole church worked together on healings many of them ended up being real.) The same importance for the cause – perhaps even greater – was placed on some men to fake homosexuality to protect Jim. Men didn’t have to say that they had had a homosexual act, but they had to remain quiet if Jim stated in public that he had sex with them. Many were asked to raise hands falsely when he asked who all he had sex with. One former member of Peoples Temple has written a book which claimed that Jim hated men. This is simply not true. Jim claimed that every homosexual act he had was for the cause. This is also not true. Jim had homosexual affairs from the beginning and with men outside of the church that had nothing to do with furthering the group’s cause. I remember well before I was a pastor in Los Angeles, sitting in a church service in Ukiah, Jim introduced a classical pianist. He played so beautifully for us all. Jim told the story of how he had met him in a homosexual bar. He told that what impressed him the most was that the pianist came up to him and said, “I know what I want, you know what you want, let’s just do it.” Jim said this was great honesty and held it up like it was an exemplary thing. This same man showed up on my doorstep later, when I was a pastor in L.A. He’d been sent there because he was seen as some kind of problem in Ukiah. When he realized that Jim was not going to have anything more to do with him, he wrote a hurt love letter in which he said “the doorknob only turns one way,” and then he took off. We never heard from him again. In L.A., Chris Lewis became Jim’s main poster child for homosexuality, yet I don’t even think Chris was gay. In the middle of a sermon, Jim would call for Chris, who would generally be lollygagging in the back of the church or in the kitchen. Chris would come out knowing exactly what he was expected to do. Jim would say, “We got all kinds of homosexuals around here. Chris is a big man, you might not want to mess with him, so you better watch out if you’re prejudiced against homosexuals. Chris might just kick your ass.” My friend Chris would then strut up and down the aisles. He wasn’t too worried about it. He was doing it for the cause. It was during this period that Jim had a series of private chats with me in the upstairs staff area backstage in L.A. To understand the context better, allow me to mention that I actually lived in the area where the inner staff worked when they were in L.A. They looked at me with a whole lot of trust at that time. Also understand that Jim had been meeting with me and teaching me how to conduct funerals and weddings, and to make donations to the police, etc.  In these private chats, Jim asked me many questions about sex, among other subjects. I was very honest and open with my answers. Jim asked how I handled it when a pretty woman made advances. It was a reasonable question. I was so honored to be a pastor, I told him, that I tried my very best to be a sexual neuter, much like a Catholic priest, because that allowed me to be fully dedicated to the job. The odd thing I remember him asking was about masturbation. He was curious about the most times I had ever had an orgasm in one day. He asked what I fantasized about while masturbating, and I told him “nothing.” It seemed hard for him to believe me. He reworded his question several times, as if I were the first human being that he had encountered of this description. It seems to me that he must have thought that fantasizing was corruption of some form. Understand that as he questioned me, he lived in fear that his sexuality might destroy his ministry. It was after this conversation that Jim went to Karen Layton and some others and told them that he trusted me “more than he trusted himself.” Karen made a big deal about it. She raised her voice and her hands in the air and said, “Jim has never, ever said anything like this about anybody.” The great respect that I had from the other inner staff ended later when I was asked to join the Planning Commission, which ruined everything. Karen and Jim both told me that the Planning Commission could learn from my great honesty. However, when I went to Ukiah for the P.C. meetings, I learned that honesty was not really welcome. I was expected to be an attack dog or to be attacked myself. I made one attack on Howard Cordell that was somewhat appropriate, but I felt bad about it later and decided not to play ball. As a result, Jim and I became more alienated from each other, and he began to perceive me as a threat. Frankly, I thought his behavior in the Planning Commission was insane and absurd. I was especially worried that he contradicted himself all the time. It was around that time that I found amphetamines in his pill bag. While isolated in Los Angeles during the years of my tenure as a pastor, I had no clue that Jim had become a paranoid, delusional, sexually-insecure power freak. I remember standing on the stage in the middle of a meeting with 2000 cheering people when I quietly asked Mike Prokes, “Do you feel a sense of power when you’re speaking and people cheer?” “Yes, I do,” he replied. “I don’t,” I told him. “I feel a sense of responsibility, not a sense of power.” Then I looked over toward Jim who was speaking and said, “but I know some people do.” One night in Los Angeles, Jim sent for me to come to his room backstage. He was wearing a T-shirt with no pants, like women often wear for nightshirts. Jim often dressed in that manner to conceal the fact that he had no chest hair and a growing gut. (The last pictures of him in Jonestown show his top button still uncomfortably fastened. He came to me several times and asked me to button my top button to hide my chest hair. At least I didn’t have to shave it.) As I entered Jim’s room, he reeked of cheap men’s cologne, either Brut or English Leather. He showed me his penis and said the herpes sores on him were not open, that it would be okay if I sucked him. I had never heard of herpes. I told him he should use his hand. He said, “Your mouth would be softer.” I answered, “When I’m horny, I use my hand.” He lowered his shirt and accepted the rejection. The next night I heard he was asking for me again, so I drove to the Albertson’s parking lot and slept all night in the car seat. Afterwards, when he said he’d been looking for me, I told him where I’d gone. He got the message. Near the end of my time in the church, Jim asked me to go along and be prepared to “moon” the Planning Commission. I thought this might be funny, but it turned out he deviously attempted to humiliate me. This incident upset me, but it wasn’t until he ordered the drugging of a young boy in a Los Angeles meeting that I decided to leave the church. The little boy was a gifted child prodigy singer, guilty only of talking to Jim in a spunky manner over a microphone. Jim acted as though this little child was a major threat to his image. He sent a nurse to take a glass of water with knockout drugs in it for the little boy to drink. Later, after the big church service was over, the body of the unconscious child was carried into a post service PC meeting where a couple of jerks made goblin and spook noises into his unconscious ear. That did it for me. I was not going to be party to such things. I had been placed over these L.A. members to be responsible by them, not to watch them be sickly abused right in front of me. I formed the words “power trips” and “humiliation tactics” on my lips for the first time and began preparations to leave. Among other things I made a series of tape recordings to protect myself. This turned out to be a prescient precaution, since after I left I was roughed up by a goon squad. I was also told that Jim had put a Mafia contract on my life. ***** There is little argument that to have believed in cause and effect, Jim Jones created the wrongest effect imaginable by using wrong methods. Among these wrong methods was telling all the men in the church that they were inwardly homosexual to protect himself or to justify the fact that he was the guilty party. I always believed that he behaved as though he may have been homosexually molested as a child. While claiming himself the world’s greatest lover, he very often alienated those he made love “at” rather than “to”. Apparently he missed out on what he needed the most: intimacy. Jim was a sexual predator-addict overcompensating for a deep feeling of inadequacy. We can only imagine the difference he could have made if he had put as much emphasis on World Improvement as he placed on convincing others of his own sexual prowess. The truth is, though, he never raped anybody. He seemed to accept rejection very politely, even if he might go through others later to humiliate or torture that person. The same woman that later wrote a book and told the press how Jim raped her was called into a council meeting in L.A. by Jack Beam while I was present. The purpose of the meeting was to tell her to stay away from Jim sexually. At first, Jim was not in the council session. Everyone confronted her and she had every opportunity to say anything she wanted to, yet she indicated that she wanted to keep seeing him. Then Jim came in and after listening to the confrontation, he quietly came to her defense. Jim undoubtedly cajoled people to have sex with him, but allowed the decision to be up to the other person. He told men that if they let him screw them, it would prepare them if they were ever in prison (as if that makes any sense). I am sure that he made women think that he was God and then tried to sleep with them. We do not accuse a man who buys dinner and shows off his new car just to get someone in bed, of being guilty of rape. Jim believed that what you finally chose to do was on you.
Ken Kline
1977- The Salt Lake Gay Services Coalition's Board of Directors officially registered the Open Door with the state of Utah as an arm of Gay Service Center. Gay Services Coalition Board of Directors met at Ray Henke’s home. In attendance were Ken Kline, Chuck Harding, Mike Reid, Bill Woodbury, Ray Henke, John Meng, and Steve Barker.

1977 -" I have been attending a group meeting at the University of Utah. It is a gay consciousness raising group. I realize that divorce is eminent. I cannot initiate it. I decorated Brad's family's Christmas tree with designs I had learned at Brown Floral. We went up Millcreek Canyon. He slept with the car seat down and I caressed him. He said we are just friends so I stopped." (memoirs of Donald Attridge)

1985- Salt Lake Men's Annual Christmas Concert held at St. Ann's Church

1987 “Laura (Laura L. Ferreira) called me again about the Names Project just excited about a fund raising idea she and her lover Terry came up with.  Terry is a co-owner of a water slide in Ogden and she wants to have an all Gay day there where half the funds will go to the Names Project Utah (Memoirs of Ben Williams)

1988 Unconditional Support Meeting “I had Chuck Whyte open up Crossroads Urban Center and I brought hot chocolate and cookies for the meeting tonight. I had copies of 45 different definitions of love to handout at the meeting and our topic was on “Games People Play”. I first had people break down some barriers by having the group do some physical games. I had them pair in twos and had them stand back to back, arms intertwined and then try to sit down together and then work to try and stand up. The discussion was on how do we play the love game when no one knows the rules? I thought it was a good meeting and we had several new people. Darrell Webber even brought his two young sons to the meeting. I announced at the meeting that I will be stepping down in January. After the meeting I talked to Darryl about taking over the group in January. Darrell and I will be getting together to discuss it in more details this Saturday. (memoirs of Ben Williams)

1989 TRIAL IN SLAYING POSTPONED TO FEB. 6  A trial for Marty Ray Withers, accused of murdering a West Valley man, has been postponed until Feb. 6, a court clerk said Wednesday. Withers, 28, Salt Lake City, originally was scheduled for trial this week before 3rd District Judge Timothy Hanson on a charge of second-degree murder. Withers is accused of killing Darrell N. Webber, 38, who was stabbed in the leg and chest during an altercation in a parking lot at 4070 S. State on April 7. Witnesses said Webber had given a ride to Withers, who had been hitchhiking on State Street. (Deseret New) Jury acquits killer

1989 ARCHULETA MIGHT TESTIFY ON HIS OWN BEHALF BEFOREJURY BEGINS DELIBERATIONS By Michael Morris, Staff WriterJurors in the capital-homicide trial of Michael Anthony Archuleta might hear the defendant testify on his own behalfWednesday before they begin deliberating his guilt or innocence.Defense attorney Michael Esplin said Tuesday he was considering putting Archuleta on the stand. Esplin said he andco-counsel Brent Bullock probably will need less than a day to present Archuleta's defense, depending on the admissibility ofcertain evidence. Archuleta is being tried for the slaying Nov. 22, 1988, of Gordon Ray Church, 28. The victim's badly beaten body was found a day later in Dog Valley, north of Cove Fort, Millard County. The prosecution rested its case Tuesday afternoon, following an autopsy report by Sharon I. Schnittker, assistant director ofthe state medical examiner's office. She said the victim had abrasions and lacerations all over his body but he probably died of severe blows to the head most likely administered by a ratchet and jack leg found at the scene. “I thought there were a minimum of eight to nine blows to the head," Schnittker testified. Injuries to Church's skull were so severe, she said, "This would be like your head being run over by a large car or truck. That's the kind of magnitude of force we're talking about." Schnittker said Church "died fairly quickly from the head injuries," but he suffered another injury that could have proved fatal. She said Church had two stab wounds to the liver, most likely caused by a tire iron found in the trunk of the victim's car a day after the slaying. Archuleta and co-defendant Lance Conway Wood, 21, left Church's white Ford Thunderbird in West Valley City. In addition, Church's neck had been cut, he had abrasions and lacerations on his back, he suffered injuries to his genitals, and he had multiple abrasions on his legs, hips, thighs and knees. His left arm and lower left jaw had been broken. Schnittker testified that the jaw injury likely was caused by a kick or punch. Earlier Tuesday, Millard Sheriff's Sgt. Charles E. Stewart testified that Archuleta admitted slugging Church in the face, but the defendant said the punch was not a hard one. "I hit him with my hand," Stewart said, quoting Archuleta. "I just tagged him one time. "In an interview with Archuleta on Dec. 2, 1988, Stewart testified, Archuleta told him: "I should be punished for taking another man's life. "When questioned about why Church was killed, Archuleta said there was no real motive except that he and Wood feared Church would tell authorities the two men had roughed up the victim. "I do not know why he was killed. He just kept saying he wouldn't rat on us," Stewart said, quoting Archuleta. "There was no motive at all. A little alcohol and you go off the deep end. We just got scared, you know. We didn't know what to do. We didn't start out planning on killing the dude."

Walter Larabee
1990 – Walter Larabee's drag comedy ensemble -The Slip-Ups presented their annual Christmas Show at Aardvarks.

1991- The Utah AIDS Foundation will start the new year with a 400 percent increase in clients and a 10 to 20 percent budget cut. Some private grants have run out and the state isn't picking up the slack, says foundation director Ben Barr. Most of the 400 active clients make less than $700 a month.

1991- If Queer Nation thinks it can make us accept homosexuality by rubbing our noses in its public displays, it has made a serious mistake. It's as if dog owners suddenly decided that the public would more readily accept dog mess all over the sidewalks if there were more of it and if it were more visible. In either case, more of it doesn't make it stink less! If I and my family are ``treated'' to any of these demonstrations, I will certainly take the opportunity to teach my children once again that God has condemned that ``lifestyle'' in easily understood terms. DONALD B. GUNDERSON Salt Lake City SLTribune Page: A41

1992- STONEWALL CENTER A `SAFE HOUSE' FOR GAYS, LESBIANS By Lance S. Gudmundsen) -Scott Carpenter of the Utah Stonewall Center was interviewed by the Salt Lake Tribune- Scott Carpenter, at Stonewall Center, said the Salt Lake facility was named after symbol of gay pride. On a hot summer night in 1969, New York police began harassing a group of patrons -most of them in drag -- at a Greenwich Village gay bar. It was routine occurrence at the Stonewall Inn. But instead of again meekly leaving, the homosexuals surprised police. They fought back. Several nights of violence, later called the `Stonewall Riots,'' marked the start of the gay-liberation movement.  The Utah Stonewall Center in Salt Lake City bears the name of the bar, considered a symbol of gay-lesbian pride. In a nondescript office building at 450 E. 900 South, the facility is a refuge -- a combination meeting place, library, resource center, sometimes lecture hall, potluck dinner party site and art exhibit hall -- for lesbians and gays. It fields dozens of telephone inquiries weekly, directing callers to appropriate agencies, from Travelers Aid to the Utah AIDS  Foundation. Callers ask about gay-friendly employers, real estate agents, apartment owners, retailers, entertainment, and health-care providers. ``We like to think of it as a `safe house,' '' says Scott Carpenter, center treasurer and board member.  Anticipating the obvious, the affable St. George native adds: ``And yes, I was named after the astronaut who went into space the year I was born: 1963.''   The center, he believes, exists ``to assure local lesbians and gays that they're not alone.'' Funded by donations and occasional grants from private foundations, the center opened in
Melissa Sillitoe
June 1991. Its interim director is Melissa Sillitoe, 22, an English student at the University of Utah  Today, it's the regular meeting place of such diverse groups as a gay historical society; a youth organization; the 50-Plus club for gay men; Affirmation (lesbian and gay members of the Mormon Church); and Queer Nation.  The parent organization for the Stonewall Center is the Gay and Lesbian Community Council of Utah, which includes some 30 independent gay and lesbian groups, Ms. Sillitoe says. The so-called ``lesbian and gay `community' '' is as diverse as the straight community, says Mr.Carpenter, a computer-systems specialist.  There are the political activists . . . the bar crowd . . . the ``invisible'' couples who live together unobtrusively . . .  the elderly . . . the adolescents . . . the affluent . . . the poor. Mr. Carpenter talks of ``Travis,'' a teen-ager who regularly calls the center. ``He invariably asks the same three questions: `How do I know if I'm gay?'  `How do I tell my parents?' `I've had sex with a man -- so does that make me gay?' ``The volunteers at Stonewall don't pretend to be counselors or social workers, so I just invite Travis to one of our youth drop-in meetings. But he's terrified of doing anything . . . and it's getting damn frustrating,'' says Mr. Carpenter, half-shrugging his shoulders. Youngsters like Travis often escape into substance abuse or ultimately attempt suicide. Joining other gays, ages 14 to 23, who weekly meet at the Stonewall Center might avert tragedy, Mr. Carpenter believes. A regular at Affirmation sessions is Brad, a 22-year-old returned Mormon missionary. Tall and blond, Brad complains that he's quizzed nearly daily concerning whom he's dating and his marriage plans. ``Brad faces a typical dilemma: he can get married and live a lie . . . or be honest and risk alienation from his family, his friends and his church.''  Affirmation's message is that love and commitment aren't limited to heterosexual marriage, Mr. Carpenter says.  The 50-Plus organization is a just-formed social group. ``They get together and `do lunch' -- potluck style.'' The much-touted ``midlife crisis'' probably is harder on gay men, Mr. Carpenter says. It was for Walt, a 53-year-old balding stockbroker. He had raised a family before ``coming out.'' After a bitter divorce, he moved into a trendy condo in the Avenues. But his children hold him in contempt, especially after he had admitted to years of secret, yet superficial, homosexual liaisons. Walt feels uncomfortable and rejected among the younger bar crowd. But he finds companionship among the 50-Plus bunch, Mr. Carpenter says. As for Queer Nation -- gay militants with an area core group of seven or eight -- Mr.Carpenter personally finds them ``abrasive.'' But they're part of the community, too, so they gather weekly at the Stonewall Center. Getting up from a table piled with brochures and envelopes, the bearded Mr. Carpenter heads for the library. With more than 1,100 volumes, it's the largest lesbian- and gay-oriented collection in Utah. Titles range from thick psychiatric tomes to an oversized picture book for children of a gay parent. It's title: Daddy's Roommate.  The most ``provocative'' volumes, says Mr.Carpenter with a laugh, ``probably are the gay equivalent of Harlequin Novels.''  A library card is $10 or $5 for students.  Reshelving a book, Mr. Carpenter says, `We're not fighting for `special' rights. We're simply seeking the equal rights due all citizens --gay or straight.''( 12/13/92  Page: B4 SLTribune)

Tony Kushner
1992 12/13/92 Page: E1 -2:. LOS ANGELES -- Playwright Tony Kushner vividly remembers the first Mormon he met. Her name was Mary. She was 13. It was the summer of '80. Mr. Kushner, 24 at the time, was in Louisiana, serving on the faculty of the Governor's Program for Gifted School Children. Mary was a student in his theater class.  ``I was very impressed with her,'' Mr. Kushner said last week from his Brooklyn home. ``She had a wonderful singing voice, and unlike some teen-agers who can be a pain in the butt, she was a great kid -- incredibly energetic, straightforward, sincere, intelligent -- characteristics I associate with Mormons.'' He paused, took an audible breath, then continued in his soft-spoken manner.   ``Her family, however, held conservative views that were deeply distasteful to me. They were decent people who nevertheless oppose what I consider to be a generally progressive agenda.''  Mr. Kushner talked about Mormonism as a theocratic religion, comparing it to Catholicism, only much newer, with a smaller, less diverse population. It is also more conservative, he believes, because it lacks some of the doctrinal contradictions that give Catholicism its liberal side. ``Most people I meet who are on the political right are rather disagreeable. They have a distinct lack of compassion as well as a lack of knowing what is going on in the world.''    When Mr. Kushner said goodbye to his students on that August graduation day, Mary handed him a present, a copy of The Book of Mormon.     ``Dear Tony,'' the inscription read, ``I'm giving you this book as a book from my heart. My whole life is based on this, therefore I'm sharing a part of my life with you as you have with me. . . I challenge you to read it.''    He never saw her again, though he speculates that perhaps she has heard about ``Angels in America: A Gay Fantasia on National Themes.'' His seven-hour epic in two parts -- ``Millennium Approaches'' and ``Perestroika'' -- is the talk of the theater world. Abundant with biting humor and painful in its depiction of a self-absorbed society, the play has captivated an astute public starved for more than musical pablum. Mr. Kushner is being heralded as a genius; ``Angels in America'' touted as an electrifying breakthrough for political theater in this country. Its searing, wide-sweeping themes include Mormonism, Reagan-era self-absorption, AIDS, the depletion of the ozone layer, and homosexuality. Heaven is described as a city similar to San Francisco. According to the play, God disappeared on April 18, 1906, the day of the great earthquake. The central characters include an LDS Republican lawyer struggling to come to terms with his suppressed homosexuality; his LDS wife, who seeks solace in Valium; a liberal young Jew who deserts his lover dying of AIDS; and the demonic lawyer Roy Cohn, who spent a lifetime denying his homosexuality. The numerous scenes crisscross between New York, Salt Lake City, Washington, D.C., and heaven. Last month, ``Millennium Approaches'' won the London Evening Standard's best-play-of-the-year award after its 11-month, sold-out engagement at the Royal National Theatre.  On Nov. 1, the two-part play, directed by Oskar Eustis with Tony Taccone, was seen for the first time in its entirety at the Mark Taper Forum in Los Angeles. It was presented in association with the New York Shakespeare Festival. Critics from the national press attended the marathon opening. Celebrities, including Robert Altman, Barbra Streisand, Anne Bancroft, Mel Brooks, Jodie Foster and Linda Hunt, were seen in the audience during the sold-out, five-week, extended run that concluded last Sunday. Now the first part of the production is headed for Broadway, opening April 25 at the Walter Kerr Theater, directed by George C. Wolfe. Mr. Kushner is revising ``Perestroika,'' and it will open at a later date. The play was originally scheduled for February at the off-Broadway Joseph Papp Public Theater. Tony Kushner, a relatively unknown author, came to Utah in the summer of '90, a participant at the Playwright's Lab at the Sundance Institute. The first act of ``Millennium Approaches,'' set in 1985, was complete, but the second act was waiting for the muse. Lab artistic director David Kranes recalls that Mr. Kushner ``was ready to trash the project when he arrived. He thought it was too large, too overwhelming.'' Then something unlocked and ``Tony wrote and wrote and wrote. I don't even remember him being at many of the working sessions. He stayed up in his cabin and just kept sending the pages down the mountain.'' Actors involved in workshopping the new material included Utahn Joyce Cohen, who portrayed Harper, the Mormon wife. Ms. Cohen described the writing as exquisite and remembers Mr. Kushner as an ``extremely nice man with a gentle spirit.''  ``Sundance was a wonderful place to work,'' said Mr. Kushner, adding that the visit allowed him to spend three afternoons in Salt Lake City. He toured Temple Square, talked with several Mormons and looked at the Wasatch Mountains. ``It is always good to get first-hand experience when available,'' said Mr. Kushner, who had obtained some of his knowledge about LDS Church history from the writings of Fawn Brodie and Harold Schindler.  ``The Mormons I met in Salt Lake gave me correctives on issues I hadn't gotten right. I was also able to see the kind of terrain the pioneers had crossed. The visit confirmed most of what I had felt about the Mormon Church -- the things that trouble me and impress me. I started writing `Angels' with that feeling before me.'' There is a scene in ``Millennium Approaches'' where two people stand in front of a Salt Lake City canyon-rim home and gaze out over the valley. One is a real-estate saleswoman named Sister Ella Chapter. The other is her friend Hannah, a Mormon mother who is selling her home and moving to New York after learning that her lawyer son is homosexual.  ``Look at that view!'' says Sister Ella, ``a view of heaven. Like the living city of heaven, isn't it, it just fairly glimmers in the sun.'' She continues to praise the beauty of the city, trying to talk Hannah out of leaving. ``Know why I decided to like you?'' she asks Hannah. ``I decided to like you 'cause you're the only unfriendly Mormon I ever met.'' Hannah shrugs, saying she won't be sorry to leave. God hasn't spared her much. ``It's a hard place, Salt Lake: baked dry. Abundant energy; not much intelligence. That's a combination that can wear a body out.'' Playwright KC Davis, a native of Utah now on a writing fellowship in Minneapolis, served as dramaturg for ``Millennium Approaches'' at Sundance. He continued with the project when Mr. Kushner completed ``Perestroika'' last year. Grieving over the death of his mother from cancer in 1990, Mr. Kushner left New York for a while and retreated to a cabin in northern California near the Russian River to work on ``Perestroika.'' ``On April 11 he finished it,'' said Mr. Davis, ``and a group of us sat around a table in San Francisco and read it. It was seven hours long. When we got to the final 20 minutes, everyone started to cry. Tony had written the ending and we were hearing it for the first time.''    Prior Walter, the Christlike figure who is dying of AIDS, wants more life, even though he knows it will only get worse. ``What Prior is saying about faith,'' said Mr. Davis, ``is that the world only moves forward. Change is not something you can change. But he is also telling people to recognize the world for what it is. He asks that  we look at the world and what we are doing. It is like the Queer Nation slogan, `We're here, get used to it.' You cannot wish us away.''    Mr. Davis, a homosexual who was raised in an LDS Utah family, said Harper leaves her religion by play's end. He is not certain about her husband, Joe.   ``If your belief is killing you, you have to find something else,'' Mr. Davis said, ``but it would be difficult for Joe. Is he going to accept who he is? He can if he wants, but admitting his homosexuality means he is a failure as a Mormon. You can't be a Mormon and a homosexual. Belonging to an organization that actively wants you to die, how could you remain part of that?'' Jeffrey King, who portrayed Joe in the Mark Taper Forum production, said it is his hope that the public will be compassionate toward all the characters, that struggle is struggle and that nobody is unscathed. ``Tony talked to us about the conflict between order and chaos. That there are people, like Joe, like Roy Cohn, who give the impression of great order, but, in fact, beneath them there is nothing but chaos. The play has a lot to do with that, as well as love, forgiveness and responsibility. People are not necessarily consistent. They live with contradictions. The ending says we are citizens of the world and we can't go back. The world moves forward. It is always moving.''    Last Sunday night in Los Angeles, after the standing ovation and prolonged applause lavished on  this remarkable ``Angels in America'' cast, a lone man in a white cap stepped out of the theater and into the drizzling rain. His walk was light, jubilant. He reached his car, started to get in, then stopped. Without addressing anyone in particular, he turned his gaze back toward the theater and in a gleeful voice asked, ``If there is no God, who are we to thank for Tony Kushner?''

Enid Greene
1995  DID WORDS AMOUNT TO GAY BASHING?  By Lee Davidson, Washington Correspondent and Chip Parkinson, Staff Writer  Democratic and Republican homosexual advocacy groups are bashing each other over whether Rep. Enid Greene Waldholtz, R-Utah, intended to use code words to suggest that her estranged husband, Joe, may be homosexual - and if she therefore is "gay bashing" to help her political and child custody battles. It began during Enid's 4 1/2-hour press conference on Monday when she said she had found in recent weeks that Joe had made "questionable lifestyle choices" beyond financial misdealings, but she would not elaborate. Gay groups often describe homosexuality as an "alternative lifestyle." David Nelson, founder of Gay and Lesbian Utah Democrats, said, "It
David Nelson
seemed to me that's what she's alluding to, and she is trying to use it in a negative way. Yes, it's probably gay bashing and at least gay baiting. "It's nothing short of what Joe McCarthy used to do with Communism, asking are you now or have you ever been a sympathizer," adding that it's no secret that Joe Waldholtz has friends who are gay. "In divorce proceedings, couples do this all the time." But 
Rep. Enid Greene Waldholtz, president of Log Cabin Republicans of Utah, a group for gay Republicans, said, "I don't think she's engaging in the gay bashing that Democrats say she is. "Questionable lifestyle choices' in Utah could mean anything from being extravagant with money to not liking Jell-O." He said if Enid wanted to accuse Joe of being homosexual, she would probably do it directly - and questioned if Democratic groups started a whispering campaign about Enid's choice of words to try to make her look like a homophobe, which he said might hurt her politically. Nelson responds, "That's pretty funny because the Democratic Party is on the record in Utah and nationally as being pro-gay - and being gay in our party is not seen as a negative. We would have no reason to start a whispering campaign." When asked if Enid would like now to alter words that could have inadvertently seemed to suggest  Joe is gay, LaDonna Lee - president of the Eddie Mahe Co., which has been hired to help with Enid's public relations - said, "She made her statement and said she will have no further comment on it. It is now a matter for the custody hearing." One of Enid's attorneys, Charles Roistacher, said he could neither confirm nor deny that Enid was alluding to homosexuality or drug use - about which rumors had circulated in recent weeks. Roistacher said, "Those are matters for the divorce proceeding and are better addressed there." However, the public may never learn from the divorce hearings and records what specific behavior Enid believes would make Joe an unfit custodian of their baby daughter. Utah law and judicial rule say custody evaluations and any psychological assessments supporting them are confidential. The media may fight the closure of such records if they are ever compiled in the case, but legal precedence argues against public access. That had some national Democrats also complaining - but not on the record - about Enid's choice of words. "There was a lot of moaning and groaning in Democratic circles when they heard what she said," said one source close to party leaders. "They saw it as a ruthless move to get the news out in a vague way and saves releasing details for a rainy news day, if ever. . . . It didn't make her look any worse and may have made Joe look worse, and therefore made her look better." Ironically, while gay advocacy groups argue about Enid's choice of words, most say they don't believe that Joe is gay - but said they have heard plenty of rumors claiming that he is. Joe and his attorney did not respond to Deseret News inquiries on the matter. David Greer, spokesman for the national Log Cabin Republicans, said, "In a small state like Utah, if Joe Waldholtz were gay, we'd likely already know about it" - but his group actually has heard the opposite from its members. Agreeing with that is Nelson from Gay and Lesbian Utah Democrats. He said such rumors about Joe had come up before, but his group's members also do not think he is gay - but say he does have friends who are. "It's no secret that he's very openly pro-gay," Greer said. Ryan, with the Utah Log Cabin Republicans, acknowledged, for example, that last year he asked Joe for and received some frequent-flier mileage credits to allow Ryan to obtain an airline ticket to attend a national Log Cabin Republicans convention in Los Angeles. Ryan said, "In my experience with Joe Waldholtz, he is very friendly with everyone and not judgmental." Some of Joe's friends in Pennsylvania also said they have heard rumors about Joe being gay but also do not believe them. "It's been rattling around back here for two weeks. I've never seen any evidence of that, but this was a huge act (by Joe), and who knows what's behind it," said Michael E. O'Connell, a longtime friend who met Joe through political activities in Pittsburgh. Jeff Leibmann, a Pennsylvania lawyer-friend of Joe who has official court custody of him and with whom Joe is currently staying, said he knew "absolutely nothing" about the rumors and would not elaborate. O'Connell said he also has seen nothing that would suggest drug use by Joe - which other rumors have also suggested. He said he had never perceived any compulsive behavior on Joe's part. "He wasn't a heavy drinker at all, and you would think that one would go with the other."  © 1998 Deseret News Publishing Co.
  • December 15, 1995 Deseret News Judge frees Joe; charges may come later Enid's lawyer says gay porn was found in husband's closets. By Lee Davidson, Washington Correspondent and Bob Bernick Jr., Political Editor Sixteen hours after Rep. Enid Greene Waldholtz, R-Utah, testified at length to a grand jury, a federal judge set Joe Waldholtz free Friday as he continued his silence on allegation of financial misdeeds. Meanwhile, the congresswoman's lawyer, Charles Roistacher, confirmed that "male, gay pornographic materials" had been found in Joe's closets at both the Waldholtzes' homes in Washington and Utah. But he would not comment on if that is what Enid Waldholtz meant earlier this week when she said she had recently discovered "questionable lifestyle choices" by her husband beyond financial misdealing. Meanwhile, a former aide said she saw Joe Waldholtz take large amounts of prescription drugs, raising questions if that is what she meant. Joe Waldholtz  reported to U.S. District Judge Emmet Sullivan on Friday for an update on negotiations with prosecutors on what areas he may be willing to testify on before the grand jury - and was given and early Christmas present of total freedom. Deputy U.S. Attorney William Lawler III said because the grand jury's probe is expanding into many complicated areas in Utah and Washington, prosecutors are not sure what they want to ask Joe Waldholtz under oath - and are not likely to know for some time. So Sullivan quashed the warrant that had compelled Joe Waldholtz's appearance as a material witness - issued when he disappeared for six days last month - and rescinded all custody orders that had limited his travel to between Philadelphia (where he had been in the third-party custody of a lawyer-friend), Washington and Pittsburgh (where his family had been suing him for embezzlement). Joe Waldholtz still agreed to check in daily with the FBI - although Sullivan noted he has no legal requirement to do so. When Joe Waldholtz was later asked where he might go, he told reporters, "It's a big country. It's a big country." Roistacher, Enid Waldholtz's attorney who is a former federal prosecutor, still predicted that Joe Waldholtz will eventually be charged with financial misdeeds - and said prosecutors have not had him criminally arrested yet only to avoid speedy trial act provisions that require an indictment within 30 days of arrest and a trial within 180 days. Prosecutors had no comment on that. Roistacher said, "We're only two-thirds of the way through the bank records on this ourselves, and we're ahead of the FBI." Prosecutor Craig Iscoe confirmed, "We are only in the early stages of our  investigation." But Joe Waldholtz's lawyer, Harvey Sernovitz, hinted that Joe is trying to work out a deal to testify against his wife. "Joe had told you he is cooperating with this investigation. I think you've all been around the courthouse long enough to understand what the significance of that is." Lawler said prosecutors have no comment on whether Joe Waldholtz is seeking a deal to testify against his wife. Joe also made a short statement to the press: "This is a very deep, personal, family and political tragedy. My statement, when I make it, will be made in a court of law as it should be. As I said before Thanksgiving, have a great holiday. To my wife and daughter, I miss you and love you very much." Roistacher also told reporters a sign that Joe Waldholtz - and not Enid - is being targeted by prosecutors is that Justice Department rules normally prohibit issuing subpoenas to people it intends to charge - and Enid Waldholtz had been given a subpoena. Iscoe said that rule is true in most cases, but exceptions do occur. As a sequel to the congresswoman's 4 1/2-hour press conference on Monday, she testified behind closed doors for three hours Thursday to the grand jury investigating possible check-kiting, embezzlement and campaign law violations involving joint accounts by the Waldholtzes. "I answered every question that was asked me as fully and as honestly ad I can. We didn't finish today. There is still a lot of ground to cover," she said afterward. "It's four years of my life." She added: "I told the U.S. attorneys that I'll make myself available as often as I can and as much time as they need. That's really all I can say." Enid Waldholtz may have testified even longer on Thursday - but some members of the grand jury arrived almost an hour late, and the congresswoman testified until the court building closed at 5 p.m. A media circus of TV cameras followed Waldholtz as she arrived and left the courthouse. At one point, she, Roistacher and a TV cameraman momentarily became wedged together between two parked cars as she tried to make her way to the courthouse door. Roistacher said Enid Waldholtz will likely not return to the grand jury until sometime in January. Meanwhile,
    Joe Waldholtz
    Roistacher confirmed that gay, male pornographic material - none of which involved children - had been found in Joe Waldholtz's closet at the Waldholtzes' homes. He would not comment on whether it included videos, magazines or other material. He said he was commenting on that only to correct a TV story asserting such materials had been seized from the Waldholtzes' homes by the FBI. Roistacher said such materials had merely been observed in Joe's closets before federal authorities had ever been contacted about the case. Possession of such material is not illegal, but could figure in the custody battle between the Waldholtzes over their daughter, Elizabeth. Earlier this week, the Deseret News reported that Gay and Lesbian Democrats of Utah felt Waldholtz was gay-bashing when she charged Joe with "questionable lifestyle choices," which it said seemed to intentionally suggest in a negative way that Joe Waldholtz is gay because gays describe homosexuality as an "alternative lifestyle." "It's nothing short of what Joe McCarthy used to do with communism, asking are you now or have you ever been a sympathizer," said David Nelson, founder of that group. He noted that Joe Waldholtz has many gay friends and is known to be pro-gay - but gay groups do not believe he is a homosexual himself. Nelson said it is also common in divorce cases for spouses to accuse each other of homosexuality in custody battles - which his group especially condemns, saying that should not be a determining factor in custody cases. Meanwhile, David Harmer, a former campaign manager and congressional chief of staff for Enid Waldholtz, while responding to questions at a press conference he called on Thursday, said, "Joe was always popping pills" - raising questions if that may also be part of what Enid described as "questionable lifestyle choices." Other members of her congressional staff have told the Deseret News that large amounts of prescription drugs were delivered to Enid's House office for Joe. Harmer said he'd see Joe walk into Joe's campaign 
    office and take two or three pills at a time, adding that Joe said they  were pain killers for a bad back. Harmer added that he had not seen  Enid Waldholtz taking prescription drugs. 
  • January 1995 Spouting Off," Editorials and Opinions "The Joke's On You!" By Brandon Creer, Co-Owner, The Pillar Many members of the community were outraged by the letters to the editor sent in by "Greg Snow". There was an overwhelming response to the blatantly offensive letter, first appearing in the August issue of The Pillar, that targeted "alcoholic drag queens", and Pride Day organizers. A second letter printed in the October issue told folks to "get over it" and "the truth hurts" mentioning we are basically akin to the drug dealers, homeless people and gang members in our society.      Nobody seemed to really like "Greg Snow" much and when his obituary appeared in the December issue of The Pillar, it seemed that the issue of "Greg Snow" and his controversial attitude had, quite literally, been laid to rest.      Not so. According to Michael Aaron, "Greg Snow" has a real name and is very much alive and well here in Salt Lake City. The real author is [Utah Log Cabin Club President] Chris Ryan.      It appears that Mr. Ryan was confronted by Mr. Aaron after having been heard mentioning to someone else that he was the infamous "Greg Snow". Mr. Aaron confronted Mr. Ryan who then confirmed that he was the author of the letters and asked Mr. Aaron that the matter be kept quiet.  The Pillar offers a public forum (Spouting Off) in which individuals may express their opinions on matters of importance to them. Many people who write to us ask that their name be withheld from print, but are required to provide their name, address and phone number in the event that verification is needed. Generally contact is not warranted and the letter is published. It is, after all, a forum for people to express their opinion no matter how strong it may be and does not reflect the opinion of The Pillar or Uranian Publishing. "Greg Snow's" letters did not contain any request to have the name withheld and an address was provided. Pillar staff did make an attempt to locate "Mr. Snow" after publication of the second letter, largely due to suspicion that "Greg Snow" was indeed fictitious. Follow up led to an address located at a mall and it was felt that "Mr. Snow" did not wish to have his home address known. Upon receipt of the obituary for "Greg Snow" the Salt Lake Tribune was contacted to confirm that there was a death certificate for "Greg Snow" on file. There was not, and the feeling was that "Greg Snow" must have passed away in Troy, New York. The obituary states that "Mr. Snow" was a "fine man" and dedicated to many charities and organizations. The fictitious obituary painted a portrait of, although an opinionated man, "an inspiration to all who knew him".   Chris Ryan, AKA Greg SNow, has indicated that he is indeed the author of the letters as per a phone call, by this writer, on December 16th. His explanation for the letters is that he wished to improve the letters to the editor section of The Pillar by creating a format that people would feel less threatened by to express stronger opinions. He states that his intention was not to hurt anybody by the letters, but to create a thought provoking situation for the community. He also indicated that is anybody was hurt by the letters, he is sorry. He admits that creating the obituary for "Mr. Snow" was going a bit far, but he wished to "kill off" the character. Mr. Ryan feels that there are many individuals who have such strong opinions about similar issues, but may feel that there will be repercussions if they express themselves using their real names, or even requesting to have their name withheld from print. Thus the need to create the fictitous "Greg Snow".   Clearly, if he feels that strongly about the gay, lesbian and bisexual community, he is entitled to express that opinion. However, using the media as a vehicle to manipulate and covertly express those opinions, followed by a fictitous obituary, appears to be going too far and is more damaging than good to the general improvement of the community.   This is not necessarily the type of news that does much good to our community and certainly does not do much for our reputation to the general public. Opinions are important and should be expressed, regardless of how strong. However, individuals who choose to express their opinions should be able to own the responsibility for those opinions and not hide behind a complex web of deceit. Reprinted from The Pillar, PO Box 520898, Salt Lake City, UT 84152-0898
  • December 1994 Pillar Page 23 "In Memory" Gregory Lance Snow Gregory Lance Snow died on October 17, 1994 in a courageous battle against cancer. Mr. Snow was born in Troy, New York on October 16, 1931.    He was the founder of Children's Charities of New York, a non-profit organization for orphaned, sick and abused children where he served as chairman of the board until 1978. Mr. Snow was also a benefactor for the National Gay and Lesbian Task Force, the Gay Men's Health Crisis and the New York City's Gay and Lesbian Community Center. He not only donated countless hours of his time to these organizations, he also donated large portions of his estate. Mr. Snow relocated to Utah two years ago with his longtime companion, Michael, to live out his final moments in the peace and serenity of Salt Lake City. Mr. Snow was buried in his hometown of Troy in late October. He is preceded in death by his father, mother and Sister Susan who passed on in September from a car accident. All who knew this fine man were inspired by his dedication and courage in the face of adversity. He was never afraid to speak his mind. What he wanted to do most in life was to open people's eyes to other people's views and their own closed-mindedness. In lieu of flowers, his family requests that you give a donation to your favorite local gay organization or AIDS charity.
Al Gore
1999-Vice President Al Gore announced that he was opposed to the "don't ask, don't tell" policy and, if elected, would propose legislation to end discrimination against gays and lesbians in the military.

1999-US Defense Secretary William Cohen ordered a full review of the "don't ask, don't tell" policy. The policy had recently been criticized for creating a hostile environment.

2001 From Chad Keller to Becky Moss: Hey Beck, We are preparing to make some changes to how we hang things at the center as far at the art and plaques.  The Dr Ries Awards will be hopefully upon their return be hung in a location that will better suit and celebrate the award.  As the hanging of items at the center fall under the Visual Arts Committee I needed to get some information about the new plaque.  Do you know what size it will be?  I would like so see if it is too late to have is created so that it is bolt able to the wall to prevent theft, you know how things walk out of the center at times.  This usually can be accomplished with holes in the for corners, that have a decorative piece that covers the actual attachment after it has been put in place.  Was wondering too what color wood or type of plaque it would be.   I need to know as soon as possible so it can be included in the proposed awards wall where the many community awards and community acknowledgements will be hung as a collective, permanent presentation for guests of the center.  We would like to do a small opening for the wall to be unveiled too, so any idea when it will be done?  I would like to see it be a focus as Pride is such an important part of our community, and the center.  Would like to do it in January or February. Let me know  Hope the holidays are wonderful...I struggle with them, lets do lunch next week??? Love ya!! Chad
  • 19 December 2001From Becky Moss to CK Chad, I have been trying to contact you for a few days.  My e-mail at work is down and messages are not going out or coming in. I did receive a message from you a few hours ago that made it clear to me that you have not been getting my updates on the plaque. I apologize for that.  Also, I do not know anything about Pride, rumors or anything like that.  If I was being sneaky, I sure wouldn't have made sure that everyone and their dogs knew that I was the person who was taking the Plaques and replacing them with a new big one that can accommodate more recipients in the future. I am going out of town in a few hours and will not be back until January 2. Please call me today if possible in my office, my direct line is 299-5439. I did leave a voice message for you on your home line.  It has taken me a little while to get to this e-mail to try to contact you.  I really did not want to cause you any stress and I repeat I am not in anyway involved in anything suspicious, nasty or back biting.  I have never been involved like that and I am not interested in being like that. Best Becky PS. I found a small thing for you for Christmas and I have not been able to get it to you.  I may try to leave it at the coffee shop or just get it to you after I get back.  Please do not reciprocate; this was just something that I hoped you would like to have. Becky

 2004 This issue Date: Mon, 13 Dec 2004 14:38:05 -0700
Hey Ben, I'm realizing I didn't send you this email before our papers hit the stands again. We ended up having to cut 4 pages out of the paper, which meant that we had to cut some of the articles and columns that weren't time-sensitive out of this issue. This meant that your column was unfortunately bumped again. We are looking at it for the January 6 issue, unless you wanted to put something else there. We are doing a Year in Review issue for Dec. 23. The email you sent with the first half of the year will definitely be used as a resource to compile that. I'm wondering if you have any more of the year already compiled. You may want to write your own take on the year in your column, but we will be putting together the actual year in review story. Sorry that I didn't tell you about this sooner. -Michael
  • Mon, 13 Dec 2004 21:43:41 -0000 Subject: [slmetro_staff] Upcoming Writers Meeting  We will be having our next quarterly staff and writers meeting for the Salt Lake Metro on Monday, January 10 at 6 p.m.Agenda topics to include: * the results of our recent readers poll * 2005 editorial calendar * upcoming special events * "State of the Company" report Of course, we'll also have Q&A time, a chance to meet and mingle with your fellow writers and staff, and I will set aside time for one-on-one meetings with anyone who wishes to chat after the formal meeting. Further details about the meeting forthcoming, but if you have any questions, please feel free to call me. Thanks, Jere Keys Editor, Salt Lake Metro Office: 323-9500 (M-F, 1 to 5) Cellular: 520-1398
2004 From: Ben Edgar Williams S To: Michael Aaron Subject: Re: This issue I am almost
Michael Aaron
finished with my chronology for the year.  I was waiting for Metro and Pillar to come out especially the Pillar since they are monthly- to finish off December- since unlike Gordon B. I am no prophet.  That is why I sent it in two parts. I still haven't picked up the Pillar so not sure when Snow Ball other annual December events are being held but I will send you what I have through the end of November. If you use it at all please acknowledge the Historical Society you know what they say-no such thing as bad press. Thanks for info on the former column. I never get feed back so never know what is going on with anything, whether too long, too wordy, not interested etc. One thing about doing a history column its already old news. LOL Hope you are having a stress free Holiday.  Best Regards Ben
  • Michael Aaron wrote “You are funny.  Snowball is this weekend. Starts Friday night, but the actual "Snow Ball" is Sunday night. I think I put a blurb on it in the Gay Agenda section.   Jere is putting together another quarterly writers' meeting the second week in January. He's also like anyone looking for feedback to maybe schedule a sit-down with him. I will definitely credit you and the USHS for the Year in Review stuff. Thanks, Ben. –Michael
  • From: Ben Edgar Williams Sent: Monday, December 13, 2004 8:08 PM To: Michael Aaron Subject: RE: This issue  Here attached is the 2nd half of the Year in Review.  Hope you realize its a pain in the butt to keep track of..Good thing I enjoy a good pain in the butt now and then. Ben
  • Michael Aaron wrote: Tue, 14 Dec 2004 I can imagine how much of a pain in the ass it is. Huh. I tend to like that once in a while too. Is that part of being gay? Thanks so much, Ben! -Michael
2012 Don't call it love I'm tired of "compassion" and "empathy" from well-meaning Mormons toward gays ("New Mormon church website has softer tone on gays," Tribune, Dec. 6). I'm tired of people trying to show love for me in my struggles and pains. I don't feel struggles and pains in being gay. I like my life. I don't want solace. I want to be treated just like my straight friends. When a straight man yearns for love, we don't say, "Let me hold your hand while you endure this temptation that you mustn't act on. It must be very hard for you." No, we rejoice in his hopes for love and companionship. I'm tired of Mormon "friends" wanting to share my (nonexistent) pains; share my joys. Life is happiness, love. None of that was in the report on the new Mormon gay website. Instead, there was loads of "compassion," "empathy," "understanding" — a lot of pain. Well, it's a phony, socially constructed pain. If Mormons really loved gays and wanted happiness for them, they would channel them into committed, permanent couple relationships. To deny them the growth from the love and sacrifice of marriage and family can hardly be called "compassion," and not at all love. Gregory Mitchell


 2014Lambda Lore by Ben Williams What is a community center? More importantly what should be the vision for a community center for the Gay Lesbian Bisexual and Trans Community of Utah? Do we even have a vision anymore? Where are the visionaries and leaders in whom we can place our confidence and trust as we prepare to go into the second half of the decade? Shouldn't we be asking what actually is the purpose of a community center and who gets to decide what that might be? Some advocate that the center should be a mental health and counseling resource. Others a show place for the elite to meet. While still others argue that a center's main goal should be to promote youth activities and programs. While all these goals are worthy in of themselves, is that what a community center should look like? If so then truly we should drop the word community from this non profit which often is view as only running programs and servicing clients from which grants can be obtained to pay salaries and up grade the facility that houses is staff. Last year as a crisis in the confidence in the leadership of the Pride Center came to a head, nearly a hundred members of the GLBT met in an open forum for nearly a month to express their disappointment in the direction the center was going.  Board and Staff members who attended these meetings were defensive and often patronizing to those in attendance and while great promises were made at reform and transparency, promising a new day at the Center, in reality business went on as usual. The center has floundered with no real leadership, which connected it with the community at large. Staff came and went. Promises were not kept and the entire building has even gone on lock down. As 2015 is upon us, it appears that "the new boss is same as the old boss" with priorities placed on a building rather than the people for whom it was intended to serve. Well heeled individuals voices are listened to far more than simply surveying the general population to assess our needs. We still have a top down hierarchy, telling us what our goals should be and where we should put our resources rather than seeking our opinions.  A leadership that is perpetuated from among its own board certainly does not reflect the diversity within our community and can hardly represent its concerns. It was not always so.  In 1989, at a meeting of the Gay and Lesbian Community Council of Utah [GLCCU], Garth Chamberlain, a representative of the Utah Gay and Lesbian Youth Group, stood up and proposed the formation of a committee to look into the feasibility of a Gay Community Center for Utah.  The motion was sustained and passed and a committee was formed with Jim Hunsaker, a representative of the Lesbian and Gay Student Union of the University of Utah [LGSU], elected chair. Elected is the operative word here.  Our first community center was planned by elected leaders who worked under the direction of a body of representatives of individuals and representatives of community organizations that existed at the time.  As a member of the community center committee I have first hand knowledge of the struggle to create an organization that would represent the vision of GLCCU. I had the distinction of suggesting the name of the proposed organization to be the Utah Stonewall Center. I felt a need to connect us historically with the struggle for civil rights for homosexuals in America. The vision of a center, as I understood it, was to be, as mandated by the GLCCU,  first and foremost a welcoming home for Gay folks and their friends. It was to be a safe zone. It was to be a place of resources, information, and education. It was to be a space open to just drop in and hang out. It was to be a facility to house and provide meeting space for various community organizations. It was to be under the direction of the GLCCU and subject to it’s internal audits and purvey.  At each monthly general meeting of the GLCCU, which was open to all; with voting privileges extended to paid members, the USC committee chair would give an accounting of minutes and finances. Transparency was not an issue. We old timers who established the GLCCU and the USC cannot see why the issue of transparency is so difficult today except for the fact that no one making decisions is accountable to anyone in the larger GLBT community. It’s easy to dismiss people’s views if one is an autocrat or is enabled by a board to be one. The Utah Stonewall Center had its grand opening on June 1, 1991 mostly due to the efforts of Charlene Orchard who replaced Jim Hunsaker as chair of the USC committee. The first director of the center was Craig Miller chosen by Orchard and who was sustained by the GLCCU. Almost immediately there was a clash of interest in what was the purpose of the USC. Orchard and Miller, who had never actually participated in the democratic process of the proceedings of GLCCU, began to ignore the stated purpose of having a center and focused on it becoming more of a social worker clinic ran by professionals rather than by volunteers from the community. I and others were troubled that the USC was moving in a different direction, under the direction of a few people, rather than following the vision set forth and approved by the GLCCU. USC's first year was a tumultuous one as a struggle ensued to establish the purpose of the center.  Hard feelings occurred, harsh accusations were made but in the end it was the GLCCU which made the decision in which direction the center should go after hearing all sides.  Keeping the mandate for the center to be a safe zone and drop-in space for the community, Marlin Criddle was elected to replace Orchard and Melissa Sillitoe of the Youth Group was selected as director to replace Miller. The Utah Stonewall Center had an all volunteer staff which kept the center open seven days a week 12 hours a day. At it’s peak, it housed the largest lending library of GLBT books, videos, and music west of the Mississippi. It housed the Utah Stonewall Archives, a collection of resources and history of Utah’s struggle for equality.  A monthly newsletter called the Center of Attention was published listing various activities. Women Community organizations led by Kathy Worthington helped paint and make curtains for the large meeting space with architects and builders putting up walls to provide more meeting space.  A large binder with all the resources and numbers of bars, organizations, counseling and legal contacts was in the front station where volunteers were trained to look up information for the center’s clients. People scrubbed floors, cleaned the bathrooms, swept the place because it was OUR community center. The youth group even had their own meeting space in the back which they decorated with spray painted murals.  Then of course the center housed a slew of  groups as vastly different as Wasatch Affirmation for Gay Mormons and Power Play a pansexual bondage group. All the while reporting monthly to the GLCCU the programs being developed, financial reports, and just a general accounting to the public. Along the way there were some that pushed to have the Center separate from the GLCCU and form it’s own non profit status. They felt that being monitored by the GLCCU was cumbersome and intrusive.  As it eventually worked out, interest in the GLCCU was waning as the old guard became fatigued from fighting two fronts, Utah’s bigotry and the AIDS epidemic which peeked in 1995 but had sapped much of the vitality out of the men’s community. The same year, probably not out of coincidence, GLCCU stopped formally meeting. At the conjunction, the USC took that opportunity to break away and form it’s own 501c3 status. The old GLCCU’s nonprofit status however was maintained by the Gay Pride Committee even after the parent organization disappeared.  Without the GLCCU oversight, in 1997 the Utah Stonewall Center, without warning or community input, closed its doors.  None of the well heeled community members stepped in to save it. Additionally with out community oversight the chair of Gay Pride Day became involved with criminal fiduciary conduct.  There's a lesson in there for those who pay attention.





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